Time to walk away

5 years of my life just ended.

1 week ago I took a decision, that has made me start walking into a different direction.
I left AIESEC and all my involvement in it for good.

I got the "invitation" to get actively involved again. And when I mean actively involved, it means, becoming a member, prepare conference, do recruitment, everything.
The idea was exciting. I was seriously thinking of doing it.

It was tough sometimes to see the way AIESEC was heading and not be able to do nothing real about it. To think of those times, where you would stand up in a plenary, working group, etc., and speak up and everyone would listen and take your advice into account. And come now, as an alumni, and not be able to do anything.

A wise word and a pitiful circumstance brought me to my senses:

"AIESEC will exist, with or without you"

The circumstance was a shameful politics play, struggle of power and personal resentfulness behind what seemed a good idea to put things in place.

Right there, at that moment, I knew it was over. I had finally shut the door, windows and holes I had made during 5 years. Decided to take a break and follow my own way, the road I had to pave, the dreams AIESEC made me dream and that now it was time to follow the yellow path to them.
I'm not accepting any more AIESEC offers, until I can close all the chapters in my mind and heart. Until all the memories, ideas, sorrows and wishes are stored and healed.
I only need the people that walked with me, the rest... will exist... with or without me.

When I am ready to come back as someone inspiring enough, I will... for the moment, I'll live.